Few will enter

Today has been a troubling day.

I kept having this line inside my head that says "Many will call my name, but few will enter". I'm just bogged down with the thought that the doorway to salvation is awfully narrow, the path tedious and painful... and the fact God already knows who will go to heaven and who to purgatory.

I'm mixed with fear and sadness.

It's strange how everyone these days in Churches always talk about being very joyful in the Lord (Which I do not refute).. I find myself joyous most of the time, if not, always. But somehow beyond that, I'm fearful sometimes because God, as God is, has the ability to read into our hearts and minds.

Luke 13 (below)
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22 Then Jesus went through the towns and villages, teaching as he made his way to Jerusalem.

23 Someone asked him, “Lord, are only a few people going to be saved?”

He said to them, 24 “Make every effort to enter through the narrow door, because many, I tell you, will try to enter and will not be able to. 25 Once the owner of the house gets up and closes the door, you will stand outside knocking and pleading, ‘Sir, open the door for us.’ “But he will answer, ‘I don’t know you or where you come from.’ 26 “Then you will say, ‘We ate and drank with you, and you taught in our streets.’ 27 “But he will reply, ‘I don’t know you or where you come from. Away from me, all you evildoers!’ 28 “There will be weeping there, and gnashing of teeth, when you see Abraham, Isaac and Jacob and all the prophets in the kingdom of God, but you yourselves thrown out. 29 People will come from east and west and north and south, and will take their places at the feast in the kingdom of God. 30 Indeed there are those who are last who will be first, and first who will be last.”