Traffic jam inside my head

I've been wanting to blog out my thoughts and feelings for days. The only real reason why I procrastinate is because there's just TOO much inside my head. Think massive overcrowding. Every intellectual highway is stuck in an unforgiving jam. The traffic lights don't work and chaos reigns as cars of unrelated thoughts run into each other. Screech. Boom. Crash.

Each time that happens, I almost think I am crazy. Or maybe losing my mind.

But I know I'm sane. I can count my numbers and I'm not sprouting warbles.

First, it's my piano exam result. I am happy with the outcome and want to declare that it's absolutely God's work. I'm not kidding. I know what I played that day. If the examiner is giving me that score, surely he heard the angels playing, not me! I'm really praying for wisdom, and praying that I do not least bit become complacent in any way.. that I do not fall into the trap of self-pride.

But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. 28He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, 29so that no one may boast before him....herefore, as it is written: “Let him who boasts boast in the Lord. - 1 Corinthians 1:27-31

Indeed I am so humbled by what God has done. Honestly, I was slightly shocked. This is what I consider 'He is showing who the real boss is'. And of course, I am overjoyed that he has heard my prayers. Through this, I learnt that God is really listening. He will give you what you need (not want) according to His plan / will. But sometimes you have to wait. So, I know God has heard my prayers about my friends.. I'm eagerly waiting to see what He will do.

Second thing, work's really busy recently. Wow, I have no idea why. Perhaps I'm tired cos I've stopped exercising for about 2-3 weeks due to two bouts of illness. This doesn't get me down so much, but I'm just groaning hehe. Wish I had just more free time at work, teeny bit more will suffice.

Third thing, moving forward.. what to do now? Study music? Take LRSM? I don't know or I don't dare to think about it? I wanna slap myself sometimes.

Fouth thing, haih... my dear friend R... is in so much pain. Even i feel the pain now, by just listening to her. My heart is just so troubled, maybe I"ll about this tomorrow when I have clearer grammar and vocabulary for this.

Tired!
Busy day tomorrow but let's do our best.