Dear God,

Please teach me to wait upon you. Please search my heart know what I am feeling inside. I am distracted. I am confused. I am rebelling. I'm holding tightly to the heavy burden which I seemingly desire to give to you, and I hate myself for that. I still need to learn to trust and commit everything to you. Everything. But right now, it's still not so. And I know your will might not be an outcome I hope for but humble my heart, humble my ambitions, humble my desires.. and to always remember, fully trust that your will shall be unto my life according to your plan, and that I will submit all that I am, all that I have, to you, everyday.

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